i am beginning to understand myself lesser n lesser...i dunno if i'm being unreasonable, not understanding or juz dunno wad...haix...have been trying to locate someone for the past hr..bcoz tml i'll b away for the whole day to m'sia...n wanted to tok to him v badly....but...juz too bad....its either i'm too "suay", he's ignoring me (quite impossible..)..or i am juz plainly unreasonable for no reason...i believe tat every gal would wish tat her bf or whoever she likes would sincerely b there for her n care...have been trying to tell myself to forget it...mayb juz hack care...but this is not the rite way, or is it?
i juz dunno.....unable to locate him thru hp...but saw him in msn...dun wish to tok to him at the moment...juz too sad...whole day he can do w/o my sms n not sms me... luckily my cousin accompanied me out...but this is not i wan...if i dun initiate any date...there will b none... T.T
juz too sad...saw how loving my cousin n her future husband is....how loving hj n diana is....comparing does make a person crazy...even if i dun compare...i'm not saying he's not gd to me...he can b nice...but juz MIA when i needed him most...till this pt of time...i really feel like crying....my heart is aching...indeed, it is not easy to handle a relationship...hope tat i wun get any heart fracture...
staying till this hr juz to get to find him in msn...busy playing his game...juz cant stop wondering how impt i am to him...wad if i juz disappear? wad would he do? anyway...i had to wake up at ard 5 tml morning...mayb juz tk a nap later so tat i can a least have some rest...stop thinking abt sad things...
*sad*